My parents had booked their tickets to reach my inlaws place around my last week of due date. Dont know suddenly they thought that they should prebook their tickets. They came one week earlier and even my contractions started. Along with that my husband got tested covid positive and he can’t be anywhere near me. He got admitted himself for 15 days. Luckily my mother was there at the right time. For 2 nights I had contractions every 10 , 15 , 30 minutes.. since it was not on the same durations I took it as a false alarm. I was waiting if we could delay some more and I could hold on for few days ..atleast my husband will be there during the delivery time. I was in pain and I could rarely sleep at night hence after 2 nights my mother told me to call doctor and explain the situation. Early morning 5am I called doctor on 29th April and she immediately told me to get myself admitted and do the covid tests for my mother as she is my caretaker. Also they wanted me to repeat the covid test since I was in contact.
It was one of the best hospital..they took proper care of me. I did a lot of breathing practice and was well prepared on what to do during the whole process. I was having mild contractions and also I had gestational diabetes..doctor told me not to delay. They induced me and woww the pain…Can’t explain. Initially I was fine..with each contractions I would breathe out and think about the baby. I was able to manage. I was dilating slower and they made me excercise on birthing ball. With each pain , I was asked to do sit ups. Nurses supported me by holding my shoulders and pushing me down. I kept asking them the time.. every 15 minutes and finally after 2 hours I got exhausted. They asked me if I wanted epidural before but I said no.. now what to do..
My doctor was giving me hope.. just half an hour.. hold on.. and yes I was somehow able to do it! Keep focusing on your breathing. After 4 hours.. I pushed with all the strength and along with all screaming my throat was almost gone. Babies voice 🥰 the crying sound. Baby is crying but you are smiling and happy 😍
If I have to describe the whole journey..I can write a book and it would not be enough.
Today she has turned 1 year .. oh my God! Time flies so fast.
The best blessing in my life is my sweet Baby.
To every Mother.. ” You are awesome, you are beautiful. No matter you have someone with you or you are alone.. you can achieve anything cause you are strong. Never give up your happiness , your career for anything. You can find a way if you think and you can do it. “
Finally the decison was made to go to his parents. It would be a lie if I say that was the best decision.
During pregnancy when your hormones are all messed up…at that time I believe taking any decision will take time or else you are going to be taking a decision based on what others tell you. That’s what happened to me. Had to go through a stressful and depressed phase at the wrong time. Trust me .. NOBODY will ever understand you like your Mother and NOBODY will love you unconditionally. I have learnt my lesson. Especially during pregnancy think about your happiness and think about your comfort. Keeping you and your baby happy and safe should be the first priority. Happy part is that I was not alone and with each movement or kicks I could feel in my stomach I could overcome everything.
I was very careful with what I eat and did all the exercises doctor asked me to. But my blood test on 7th month showed I had gestational diabetes. Doctor asked me I had to take insulin.. but I was too scared. Instead I asked for sugar tablet. My routine changed..I was given a diet chart to follow. I got up every morning 6am .. made sure I eat something.. drink milk..walked half an hour and I had to test my sugar level daily at home before and after food. Depending on how the level is ..I had to control my food. Stopped eating sweets and measured my food intake based on the doctor instruction.
All these made me more stressed and emotional. I felt I don’t have anyone to rely on and nobody would understand its hard for me. As any mother would do.. I was eagerly waiting for my baby.
Finally..I am ready to share my Motherhood journey with my viewers! My daughter is going be 1 year old this April 29th and I feel this is the right time for me as well to write about how I feel and what I experienced.
I never imagined that one day I will also become a Mommy. When I used to see a pregnant lady..at work or on road.. I used to think how do they manage to walk and how can they carry another life inside them. I can only see the discomfort and pain. I was sure I don’t want to go through that phase. I am not capable of taking care of even myself..how will I be able to take care of a baby? The big stomach that comes with it.. the pain during birth 😢. I definitely did not want to go through it.
Well… that me has changed
After 1 year of marriage..when I was 29, I started getting these weird thoughts and feelings. 😅 My YouTube search shifted from comedy videos, make up videos to baby videos! I felt I am now ready for a baby.. I want to be a mother. I got that feeling of responsibility which was surprising to me as well. 😆
The me who loved to spend money shopping for things that I won’t even use.. started saving. 🙊
My baby girl has been suffering from cold and cough for the past few days. Seeing her suffer feels so terrible. Past few days had been busy. Hugging her, being there with her, noting all the medications and giving to her on time. Lots to follow – cannot give medicine after feeding and then taking her from sleep and giving medicine (forgetting to give some of them). All the changing of cloths after she vomits, fighting with her hands to put that nasal spray. Calming her, singing to her, making her sleep and jumping out of bed when I hear any sound. Now she’s recovering and its my turn to be sick. Since Yesterday I am down with cold and horrible throat pain but that’s fine as long as baby gets well. You feel so helpless when your tiny one is not well, when all you can do is hug them when they are sick as you never know if they are in pain.
Today she stepped into 5 Months. I am so grateful and thankful to God for bringing her to this world and keeping her safe.
To my baby girl:
It seems like yesterday you were born
Time flies and you are soon 5 months old
Can’t have enough of your laughter and cries
Its so fun playing with you
I never get tired of taking care of you
I know I am a lazy one but I will do everything for you
You make me realize that I have lot to improve
To the world you may not be perfect but for me you are most perfect and beautiful
Saying No: Your friends and family will be eager to meet your baby but you need your time to rest and adapt. Its okay to say no to any visits.
Baby crying: As a newborn your baby will cry out loud and you never know the reason. You will get worried but its normal. Mostly they cry due to wet diaper, colic or just need you to lift them.
Sneezing: Babies sneeze often. You get scared thinking baby might have caught cold. Sneezing in babies is good in a way it helps in cleaning their nose.
Startle reflex: Your baby will be in deep sleep and suddenly you see your baby lift both their hands and cry out loud. This is scary and you will worry that your baby is unable to get enough sleep. Its normal for babies to have this Moro reflex for initial 1 or 2 months
Feeding: At hospital they ask you to feed your newborn every 1 or 2 hours for 30 minutes. Every baby is different and they feed different amounts. Sometimes you may feel your baby does not feed that much. Don’t worry about it if your baby is gaining weight.
Finding me time: You will be so tired feeding and caring your baby that you will find it difficult to look after yourself. In the initial months or weeks you will rarely sleep for 2 hours. Don’t worry, after few weeks you will be able to increase the gap between feedings at night as your baby will gain weight and you can set a routine. Still you will need to continue feeding baby every 2 hours during the day. Its always good to ask for help so that you can get some rest.
Milestones: Growth will differ for each baby. You cant expect the weight, height and activities of your baby to be same as how it is mentioned by someone else. You leave this to pediatrician to decide. Never compare your baby with other babies.