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Being a Mother – Part 4

My parents had booked their tickets to reach my inlaws place around my last week of due date. Dont know suddenly they thought that they should prebook their tickets. They came one week earlier and even my contractions started. Along with that my husband got tested covid positive and he can’t be anywhere near me. He got admitted himself for 15 days.
Luckily my mother was there at the right time.
For 2 nights I had contractions every 10 , 15 , 30 minutes..  since it was not on the same durations I took it as a false alarm. I was waiting if we could delay some more and I could hold on for few days ..atleast my husband will be there during the delivery time.
I was in pain and I could rarely sleep at night hence after 2 nights my mother told me to call doctor and explain the situation. Early morning 5am I called doctor on 29th April and she immediately told me to get myself admitted and do the covid tests for my mother as she is my caretaker. Also they wanted me to repeat the covid test since I was in contact.

It was one of the best hospital..they took proper care of me. I did a lot of breathing practice and was well prepared on what to do during the whole process.
I was having mild contractions and also I had gestational diabetes..doctor told me not to delay. They induced me and woww the pain…Can’t explain. Initially I was fine..with each contractions I would breathe out and think about the baby. I was able to manage.  I was dilating slower and they made me excercise on birthing ball. With each pain , I was asked to do sit ups. Nurses supported me by holding my shoulders and pushing me down.  I kept asking them the time.. every 15 minutes and finally after 2 hours I got exhausted. They asked me if I wanted epidural before but I said no.. now what to do..

My doctor was giving me hope..  just half an hour.. hold on.. and yes I was somehow able to do it! Keep focusing on your breathing.
After 4 hours..  I pushed with all the strength and along with all screaming my throat was almost gone.
Babies voice 🥰 the crying sound. Baby is crying but you are smiling and happy 😍

If I have to describe the whole journey..I can write a book and it would not be enough.

Today she has turned 1 year .. oh my God! Time flies so fast.

The best blessing in my life is my sweet Baby.

To every Mother.. ” You are awesome, you are beautiful. No matter you have someone with you or you are alone.. you can achieve anything cause you are strong. Never give up your happiness , your career for anything. You can find a way if you think and you can do it. “

Being a Mother – Part2

5th September 2020 I got a positive result.😁 Since it was too early initial scan nothing came up. Took a blood test for them to check the hCG levels. Doctor asked me to come back after 2 weeks, still unsure if everything is alright.
2 weeks felt so long for me..
Finally.. at my next appointment, they could see the fetus. A very tiny dot. Could not hear the heartbeat yet. Again another blood test was done. I am very scared of needles..but the endless number of blood tests made me to overcome this fear actually. I was like blood test right.. come on take my blood🤣.


Again waited for a week and in my next scan.. I heard the most amazing sound. Baby’s 💓 it was loud and fast. I was filled with tears and I was filled with love.❤


Doctor advised me what to eat and how to be careful in the initial months. I have heard most women have upset stomach or vomiting in the initial months.. I guess I was lucky, I did not have much of that.. only two or three times at the most. Smelling lemon helped me I guess 😀
I was happy and everything was going well. Since it was during covid wave..it was at the start , at my office they allowed me to work from home.
We are staying away from parents and it was decided that, we will be going to parents place when I will be around 5 to 7th month of pregnancy.  My in-laws wanted us to stay with them, whereas my parents wanted us to stay with them.
I was not sure what to decide..  should I go with what my husband is suggesting ..that is to stay with his parent’s or should I go and stay with my parents!

To be continued..

Being a Mother – Part 1

Finally..I am ready to share my Motherhood journey with my viewers! My daughter is going be 1 year old this April 29th and I feel this is the right time for me as well to write about how I feel and what I experienced.

I never imagined that one day I will also become a Mommy. When I used to see a pregnant lady..at work or on road.. I used to think how do they manage to walk and how can they carry another life inside them. I can only see the discomfort and pain.
I was sure I don’t want to go through that phase. I am not capable of taking care of even myself..how will I be able to take care of a baby?
The big stomach that comes with it.. the pain during birth 😢. I definitely did not want to go through it.

Well… that me has changed

After 1 year of marriage..when I was 29, I started getting these weird thoughts and feelings. 😅
My YouTube search shifted from comedy videos, make up videos to baby videos!
I felt I am now ready for a baby.. I want to be a mother. I got that feeling of responsibility which was surprising to me as well. 😆

The me who loved to spend money shopping for things that I won’t even use.. started saving. 🙊

To be continued..

Life goes on..


There comes one point when you realize this time you need to let go.

Some mistakes cannot be undone, some hurts cannot be forgotten and some people can never be forgiven ..no matter how close they are to you.

Never lose your self respect and never lose yourself over someone who knows they are wrong but still never ready to accept and change themselves.
It’s the sad truth but you need to accept that in the past and present they did not give you the importance,  did not stand up for you.. then in the future also they are going to be the same.


Life gives you the choice to hold on or move on.
Whatever you chose.. life goes on.

End of the day thought

At the end of the day, if you think you have learned something.. you have given your best then you are already good.

Every simple thing you do matters. Be it helping someone, caring, making someone feel loved.

Be it taking up small opportunities that today you dont feel happy with.

Don’t be afraid of doing something out of your comfort zone.

Each thing you do, they are the building blocks that will shape your future.

-Acsah Roshan🌃

Life is uncertain

Life will be always complicated.
You will have ups and downs.
Somedays you will be dancing in joy.
Somedays you will cry.
There are happy moments that makes you smile and laugh.
Sometimes you will be in good health and sometimes you go through sickness.
There are failures.
There are success.
You meet good people.
You learn lessons from wrong people. This uncertainty makes you stressful. But keep faith and keep going. Life isn’t always going to be perfect but you will get what you wanted one day. Amazing things will happen in your life as you move forward. You will get stronger and you will learn to overcome the struggles. You will come to know you have more potential and you are way more capable.
In life there is no right time or a wrong time for doing things.
Be happy now.
Embrace yourself.
The choice is with you to make your present better. Do more of what makes you happy.

To my baby girl

My baby girl has been suffering from cold and cough for the past few days. Seeing her suffer feels so terrible. Past few days had been busy. Hugging her, being there with her, noting all the medications and giving to her on time. Lots to follow – cannot give medicine after feeding and then taking her from sleep and giving medicine (forgetting to give some of them). All the changing of cloths after she vomits, fighting with her hands to put that nasal spray. Calming her, singing to her, making her sleep and jumping out of bed when I hear any sound. Now she’s recovering and its my turn to be sick. Since Yesterday I am down with cold and horrible throat pain but that’s fine as long as baby gets well. You feel so helpless when your tiny one is not well, when all you can do is hug them when they are sick as you never know if they are in pain.

Today she stepped into 5 Months. I am so grateful and thankful to God for bringing her to this world and keeping her safe.

To my baby girl:

It seems like yesterday you were born

Time flies and you are soon 5 months old

Can’t have enough of your laughter and cries

Its so fun playing with you

I never get tired of taking care of you

I know I am a lazy one but I will do everything for you

You make me realize that I have lot to improve

To the world you may not be perfect but for me you are most perfect and beautiful

You bring more happiness each day in my life

Love you lots, Hugs and Kisses