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Being a Mother – Part 4

My parents had booked their tickets to reach my inlaws place around my last week of due date. Dont know suddenly they thought that they should prebook their tickets. They came one week earlier and even my contractions started. Along with that my husband got tested covid positive and he can’t be anywhere near me. He got admitted himself for 15 days.
Luckily my mother was there at the right time.
For 2 nights I had contractions every 10 , 15 , 30 minutes..  since it was not on the same durations I took it as a false alarm. I was waiting if we could delay some more and I could hold on for few days ..atleast my husband will be there during the delivery time.
I was in pain and I could rarely sleep at night hence after 2 nights my mother told me to call doctor and explain the situation. Early morning 5am I called doctor on 29th April and she immediately told me to get myself admitted and do the covid tests for my mother as she is my caretaker. Also they wanted me to repeat the covid test since I was in contact.

It was one of the best hospital..they took proper care of me. I did a lot of breathing practice and was well prepared on what to do during the whole process.
I was having mild contractions and also I had gestational diabetes..doctor told me not to delay. They induced me and woww the pain…Can’t explain. Initially I was fine..with each contractions I would breathe out and think about the baby. I was able to manage.  I was dilating slower and they made me excercise on birthing ball. With each pain , I was asked to do sit ups. Nurses supported me by holding my shoulders and pushing me down.  I kept asking them the time.. every 15 minutes and finally after 2 hours I got exhausted. They asked me if I wanted epidural before but I said no.. now what to do..

My doctor was giving me hope..  just half an hour.. hold on.. and yes I was somehow able to do it! Keep focusing on your breathing.
After 4 hours..  I pushed with all the strength and along with all screaming my throat was almost gone.
Babies voice 🥰 the crying sound. Baby is crying but you are smiling and happy 😍

If I have to describe the whole journey..I can write a book and it would not be enough.

Today she has turned 1 year .. oh my God! Time flies so fast.

The best blessing in my life is my sweet Baby.

To every Mother.. ” You are awesome, you are beautiful. No matter you have someone with you or you are alone.. you can achieve anything cause you are strong. Never give up your happiness , your career for anything. You can find a way if you think and you can do it. “

Being a Mother – Part3

Finally the decison was made to go to his parents. It would be a lie if I say that was the best decision.

During pregnancy when your hormones are all messed up…at that time I believe taking any decision will take time or else you are going to be taking a decision based on what others tell you. That’s what happened to me.
Had to go through a stressful and depressed phase at the wrong time.
Trust me .. NOBODY will ever understand you like your Mother and NOBODY will love you unconditionally.
I have learnt my lesson. Especially during pregnancy think about your happiness and think about your comfort. Keeping you and your baby happy and safe should be the first priority.
Happy part is that I was not alone and with each movement or kicks I could feel in my stomach I could overcome everything.

I was very careful with what I eat and did all the exercises doctor asked me to. But my blood test on 7th month showed I had gestational diabetes. Doctor asked me I had to take insulin.. but I was too scared. Instead I asked for sugar tablet. My routine changed..I was given a diet chart to follow. I got up every morning 6am .. made sure I eat something.. drink milk..walked half an hour and I had to test my sugar level daily at home before and after food.
Depending on how the level is ..I had to control my food. Stopped eating sweets and measured my food intake based on the doctor instruction.


All these made me more stressed and emotional. I felt I don’t have anyone to rely on and nobody would understand its hard for me.
As any mother would do.. I was eagerly waiting for my baby.

To be continued

Being a Mother – Part2

5th September 2020 I got a positive result.😁 Since it was too early initial scan nothing came up. Took a blood test for them to check the hCG levels. Doctor asked me to come back after 2 weeks, still unsure if everything is alright.
2 weeks felt so long for me..
Finally.. at my next appointment, they could see the fetus. A very tiny dot. Could not hear the heartbeat yet. Again another blood test was done. I am very scared of needles..but the endless number of blood tests made me to overcome this fear actually. I was like blood test right.. come on take my blood🤣.


Again waited for a week and in my next scan.. I heard the most amazing sound. Baby’s 💓 it was loud and fast. I was filled with tears and I was filled with love.❤


Doctor advised me what to eat and how to be careful in the initial months. I have heard most women have upset stomach or vomiting in the initial months.. I guess I was lucky, I did not have much of that.. only two or three times at the most. Smelling lemon helped me I guess 😀
I was happy and everything was going well. Since it was during covid wave..it was at the start , at my office they allowed me to work from home.
We are staying away from parents and it was decided that, we will be going to parents place when I will be around 5 to 7th month of pregnancy.  My in-laws wanted us to stay with them, whereas my parents wanted us to stay with them.
I was not sure what to decide..  should I go with what my husband is suggesting ..that is to stay with his parent’s or should I go and stay with my parents!

To be continued..

Being a Mother – Part 1

Finally..I am ready to share my Motherhood journey with my viewers! My daughter is going be 1 year old this April 29th and I feel this is the right time for me as well to write about how I feel and what I experienced.

I never imagined that one day I will also become a Mommy. When I used to see a pregnant lady..at work or on road.. I used to think how do they manage to walk and how can they carry another life inside them. I can only see the discomfort and pain.
I was sure I don’t want to go through that phase. I am not capable of taking care of even myself..how will I be able to take care of a baby?
The big stomach that comes with it.. the pain during birth 😢. I definitely did not want to go through it.

Well… that me has changed

After 1 year of marriage..when I was 29, I started getting these weird thoughts and feelings. 😅
My YouTube search shifted from comedy videos, make up videos to baby videos!
I felt I am now ready for a baby.. I want to be a mother. I got that feeling of responsibility which was surprising to me as well. 😆

The me who loved to spend money shopping for things that I won’t even use.. started saving. 🙊

To be continued..

Tolerance

Is it okay to tolerate someone when you don’t like what they do?
Is it okay to adjust to their
behavior?
When you know they constantly lie..is it okay to not bother?
Tolerance leads to the scariest results.. one day you are gonna reach your limits and its going to be the worst.
It’s always better to express what and how you feel.. let them know you don’t like the way they act. They can’t fool you and you know what’s going on. If they are going to continue doing whatever they like, that means they are not the right person to be in your life.
Even if you are going to lose such people..its their loss and not yours.

Credit: Quotes/Image taken from Pinterest https://pin.it/2ljkQwO

A good lesson

Met a wonderful person today. When I look at her.. I know why I am still stuck doing the same things.

I somehow hate taking public transport, especially I feel taking bus, trains and auto’s to be really exhausting. Not sure how many of you feel the same.
This wonderful lady says she loves commuting to office using buses and train.. even though it’s like a 1 hour journey. She gets the chance to look around..find something new and to get some time to think, away from her home.

She says how she’s old and single..yet she’s successful and cheerful.

She loves to interact with new people everyday. I was amazed by her calmness, the way she quickly adapted to new surroundings. She travelled more than a 13 hour Flight but I could barely notice any tiredness on her face..

We don’t really need someone to depend on , if we have made up our mind that we are going to be fine. Everyday we do get something to compliant about..it can be sometimes a very small problem.
We might be angry with someone else or about something but we take it out at the wrong time and at the wrong person. Somedays we feel tired without any reason.

Worrying about what’s going to happen ..takes up more time. Makes us feel low and feel like a loser.

When we think about it calmly.. we can know how much a single positive thought can change our life.
A little discomfort can give us something good.
We don’t have to be stuck with someone who doesnot value us and we can be more peaceful.

Learning and success is always achieved when we are out of our comfort zone.

Life goes on..


There comes one point when you realize this time you need to let go.

Some mistakes cannot be undone, some hurts cannot be forgotten and some people can never be forgiven ..no matter how close they are to you.

Never lose your self respect and never lose yourself over someone who knows they are wrong but still never ready to accept and change themselves.
It’s the sad truth but you need to accept that in the past and present they did not give you the importance,  did not stand up for you.. then in the future also they are going to be the same.


Life gives you the choice to hold on or move on.
Whatever you chose.. life goes on.

Happy 11 Month to my baby

Happy Bday to my beautiful baby girl

Your bright big eyes, your laughs and smiles..

Your screams, the way you say Banana, your kisses and your increasing naughtiness..

Makes us forget the sleepless nights.. and makes parenthood worth it.

The past Month you had to go through some challenges and pain, you have been very strong girl. We are proud of you!

I thank God for keeping you safe and healthy.

Keep smiling and laughing always! Love you more.