Finally the decison was made to go to his parents. It would be a lie if I say that was the best decision.
During pregnancy when your hormones are all messed up…at that time I believe taking any decision will take time or else you are going to be taking a decision based on what others tell you. That’s what happened to me.
Had to go through a stressful and depressed phase at the wrong time.
Trust me .. NOBODY will ever understand you like your Mother and NOBODY will love you unconditionally.
I have learnt my lesson. Especially during pregnancy think about your happiness and think about your comfort. Keeping you and your baby happy and safe should be the first priority.
Happy part is that I was not alone and with each movement or kicks I could feel in my stomach I could overcome everything.
I was very careful with what I eat and did all the exercises doctor asked me to. But my blood test on 7th month showed I had gestational diabetes. Doctor asked me I had to take insulin.. but I was too scared. Instead I asked for sugar tablet. My routine changed..I was given a diet chart to follow. I got up every morning 6am .. made sure I eat something.. drink milk..walked half an hour and I had to test my sugar level daily at home before and after food.
Depending on how the level is ..I had to control my food. Stopped eating sweets and measured my food intake based on the doctor instruction.
All these made me more stressed and emotional. I felt I don’t have anyone to rely on and nobody would understand its hard for me.
As any mother would do.. I was eagerly waiting for my baby.
To be continued